2013 is a year of starting over. Unfortunately, the accident on October 15 put me in such set back mode that I have felt more pain in the last 2 months than I have felt in the last year!! And of course there is no down time. Work was busier than ever, we are trying to prepare for the holidays, I am dealing with the whiplash from the accident and of course the fibro!
I have been feeling very discouraged. Last year I started feeling better and then I had gall bladder surgery... major setback. This year I started feeling better and BAM!! car accident. My blood tests keep coming back with unhappy results; my body is just not absorbing the nutrients it so vitally needs to combat this disorder!! Oh and a new symptom... major shocks radiating throughout my body. I will literally be sitting there and all of a sudden a pain like a hot knife being torn through the back of my arm, or down my leg, or in a hip!! If I'm walking, I will fall; if I'm carrying a drink, I will drop it. This is very annoying and very painful.
So Dr. Tompkins and I will be having a lot of heart to heart talks on just how much all the changes I am making are, or are not, helping. I mean, nothing she has me do hurts, but it may be time to make more changes.
I plan on attending my next visit with a list of goals, some will be tiny like growing my hair long and being able to maintain it by being able to lift my arms for more than five minutes while others will be larger, like joining a gym so I can lose some of the 40 pounds that has been gained with my inability to stay active. I am going to find out why my body is not absorbing nutrients and I will fix it.
I am not giving up, far from it, I am getting angry! And from that anger will come my will to keep fighting this damn disorder and get better. I can feel better; I will always run the risk of having set backs, but I do believe that I can get better!!
